theelfhybrid

For many years now, I've struggled with a lot of things, and especially my illnesses and the lack of energy particularly. Now I'm starting to feel like maybe I get to "come back" to art, and try to be more my old self again. I hope I can.
If there are any photography or drawing-challenges that are out there right now, then maybe that could be a thing.
No idea how many of "my" folks are still left on here in any case, but hi if you are.

I know that it's going to take a lot of energy to create, and open myself up to things, and for now it seems like too much.
I watch series, I read more, I game more, and I look at more art - but I can't seem to break the barrier into my own creative pool for too long without being exhausted.

Okay. Lists will help.

-I want to excel at drawing in several styles PROJECT 8 + 10
-I want to be a good writer - PROJECT 7
-I want to be a good photographer - PROJECT 9
-I want to make art installations (which is a new wish for me, kind of) 
-I want to make cosplays that I can be proud of - PROJECT 4
-I want to make small dioramas and things for dolls - PROJECT 6 
-I want to be able to paint well - PROJECT 3
-I want to be able to do graffiti well - PROJECT 2
-I want to be able to make things that are practical yet artsy - PROJECT 5
-I want to be able to make animated videoes - PROJECT 1

Project list:

1-Animated video, part 1 - storyboard
2-Karpe-tagthing
3-paint a small painting 
4-Start the cosplay Ive thought about
5-Make a pillow
6-Make a dollhouse
7-Finish fanfic
8-Realism fruitbowl
9-Plan 5 photographs
10-Start the webcomic

I have a plan.

There's a reason I take breaks from art. 
It's not just attentionspan, it's not just that everything triggers new ideas and projects. 
It's the fear of failure that paralyses me.

I sat here contemplating what skill, what hobby, I want to be better at and the answer is still all of them.
It's still I want to do it all.

-I want to excel at drawing in several styles
-I want to be a good writer
-I want to be a good photographer
-I want to make art installations (which is a new wish for me, kind of)
-I want to make cosplays that I can be proud of
-I want to make small dioramas and things for dolls
-I want to be able to paint well
-I want to be able to do graffiti well
-I want to be able to make things that are practical yet artsy

I don't know how to choose. I love all these things. I want to do them all, but I'm not Leonarda da Vinci, I've got shit to do and a family to bring up and how do I even start at one of these?